Saturday, April 30, 2005
todae gt sportsdae. f*ing hot sia. cannot tahan. yupp. went to kbox wif xuan n shifu. nt reali v fun. can sae bored. but shifu made e dae. hehe.
11:17 AM
Friday, April 29, 2005
todae was a v v bad dae. though e weather was quite alrite todae. heard sth i shldnt. n my mood was buang. ha. den went fer lit lesson in e ava rm. reali reali bad mood. den Mas still sit at my place. was totali pissed of. sorta figth wif yazid over e control fer e aircon. switched it off. n dat's it. in e end i won. Mas left e seat. so? i brokedwn. cried again. nt sob, but cry. haix. when can i eva recover? it's a long long journey. =(
9:48 AM
Thursday, April 28, 2005
爱人应该是要用 [心] 去爱,
不是用 [脑子] 去爱,
怎可能用脑子计划好,
你应该要爱什么人呢?
quote taken frm [sweet lemon] book.
but it's so true!
( fer those hu cant see chi wrd. here's e translation)
u shld use ur [heart] to lurve someone,
nt use [brain],
how can u use ur brain,
to decide hu u shld lurve?
11:29 AM
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
all i wan to sae now is "wo zhen de zhen de hen ai ni. all i can tink of is u. shen me dou shi ni. mei yi fen mei yi miao. haix. couldnt concentrate on anyting. cannot study oso. but do u noe all tis anot?" someone get me outta tis deep pit pls!
10:42 AM
Monday, April 25, 2005
todae is sundae liao. fen shou di qi tian. didnt wish to wake up so earli de. but i actuali woke up at 8+. budden i forced myself to slp back. so i slept until 12.30. haix. yi jing kai shi man man shi ying mei you ni de ri zi le. but it's terrible. it's thanks to everyone's concern dat i can hang on until now. reali. thanks peeps. i noe these r my true frens. cos they r wif me when i needed them. now got nth to do. actuali ask xuan pei me cum out study de. budden she sae she lazy. fine lor. n wad now? she goin limbang study wif WH. asshole. den lata den mit her go cwp watch shikoku. movie marathorn sia. k la. gonna go prepare liao. go dere give her surprise. tata!
5:13 AM
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
haix. second dae of it. n i'm feeling reali terrible thruout e whole dae. tried v hard to hold back my tears but failed. haix. you hen duo hen duo hua yao dui ni shuo. ke shi dou mei you ji hui le. xian zai de wo shen me shi dou yao zi ji zuo. yi qian dou hui you ni lai bang wo. shou guo yao bing jian zuo zhan de. ke shi ni tu ran jian jiu zhe yang li kai le wo, rang wo zi ji yi ge ren mian dui suo you de yi qie. zhen de hen huai nian wo men yi qian suo yong you de mei yi fen, mei yi miao. wo zhi dao yi qie dou guo qu le. suo you de yi qie dou jiang cheng wei guo qu. ke shi, wo hui yi zhi deng dai qi ji de chu xian. ying wei yu jian ni shi yi zhong qi ji. wo xiang xing hai hui you qi ji chu xian de. mei you ni de mei yi tian, xing fu li wo hao yao yuan. mei you ni de ri zi, wo bu zhi dao yao zhen me gou. yi qian de wo, yi qi lai di yi ge xiang dao de jiu shi ni. ran hou jiu hui sms ni. xian zai de wo yi ran mei you bian. qi lai di yi ge xiang dao de jiu shi ni. ke shi bian de shi wo bu neng sms ni le. every morning i woke up wif life n hope. now, i've lost all of it. wo shen me shi hou cai neng zhen zuo qi lai, mian dui xian shi ne? yi qie dou bian le. tai duo tai duo.
*a lurve nest fer me n him*
( tune adapted frm jay chou, an jing)
save tis wonderful date in ur memory
write down in ur diary
19th of feburary
tis is e first time i c a pink fairy
i tot i am dreaming
it is reality
everything seems to be like a fantasy
all i cna do is try to make u happie by reading till now i guess u mus be smiling
baby i lurve u my darling
chorus:
u r my lurve at first sight
n u will be by my side
to catch e shining stars dta twinkle in e nite
i've nv seen stars so bright
nt bcos i slp at nite
cos u r my shining lite
n i'm ur mr rite
u r e breath of my life
a lurver no one can find
n nth pls me more to learn dta u r mine
ppl sae lurve is gamble
wif lots of wars n battles
i'm gonna make it betta
let me lurve u fereva
*end*
end of song. end of our rs. haix. u lurved me. but i will continue to lurve u. nv end.
signed off by
*// xindi-hurttx *//
9:30 AM
Monday, April 18, 2005
reccount of ytd first.
sixteen. april .2oo5
hmmm. earli in e morning was suppose to mit xuan n shilei at 11.30 de. budden i overslept. woke up at 10.55 liddat. budden reach dere shilei still haven cum. haha. den went to eat den walk walk cos shilei wanna buy sth. den went to sch fer e campfire. but it rained like hell! sia la. tot will bcum gang show liao. but in e end e rain stop. hooray! so e campfire went on as planned. all i noe is v fun. went totali crazy. but ran outta energy frm 2nd half onwards. den our performance was great i tink. den after everything gt mass dance. even more crazy sia. xuan totali went bonkers. had lotsa fun dere lor. den after e whole tingy i msged dear. no shld be nest. yupp. fear n sadness overcum happiness. i knew dat he has sth to tell me. i noe. dun wish to go on. den went hum on my own. intended to walk hum de. but my legs dun allow me to. yeah. den my whole dae ended liddat.
seventeen. april .2oo5
todae was hell fer me. i woke up n msged nest. told him abt my dream. den he cum clean wif me. he shld hav told me ytd. nt todae. or even tml oso can. jiu shi bu neng jin tian tell me. but bu shuo dou shuo le. tis is e end. of my life.
3:39 AM
Friday, April 15, 2005
yeppx. here blogging again. nth betta to do yeah. todae quite gd luck. hehe. no hw. todae's tut was smooth? completed e work in sch. first time gt sense of achievement. haha. realise dat tut wasnt dat bad after all lor. but still skiving ard. SLP! =x but weather still hot as usual. jin tian suan hen hao le. nt so hot. hmmm. now e weather is cooling. jus rained. v windy jus now. all i could sae now is miss dear loads. reali reali loads. sat gt campfire. dun even noe can mit him notx. tml gt tution. haix. life is so terrible. full of work to do. sian. tml's lesson boring. 7 periods but c onli 2 chers. can u believe it. zaharah take 3 periods. den other 4 kana taken by ms seng. but we'll be watching a movie. cos doing movie review. hopefully e movie is nt a boring one ya? yupp. i shall end here. so boring. take care peeps. =)
lurve eu.
12:33 PM
Thursday, April 14, 2005
hmmm. another dae gone. todae gt NAPHA. so tiring sia. weather hot like hell. so humid. sweating like hell even in klass oso liddat. let me reccount wad happen ytd.
twelfth. april .2oo5after tut dear cum sch mit me. at first wanna go JP de. cos go lot1 until sian liao. budden he suddenly dun wanna go JP. haha so went to lot1 wif xuan n candy mi lor. but mi go pick wei wei up first. den go mi's hse. dear dun wanna go in. so i pei him sit outside n chit chat. hmmm. den went to (let's eat) to eat dinner. mi's treat. dear bu hao yi si, keep wanting to pay mi back. haha. den he nagged her fer soOooooOo long sia. bth them. in e end oso nv take e money. den on our wae hum dear was tinking of sth. xiang de hen ru shen. dun look like him at all. v scary. me was v worried. worried abt wad he was tinking. worried dta i said sth wrong den make him angry or sth. lotsa worries. "tap" almost open. but nv. promise is a promise. first time i c him liddat. no smiles no luffter on his face. zhen de hen dan xin ta. den tried waes to cheer him up. in e end we go buy triple choco icecream. it reali works ah. finali he tot of wad he was tinking abt liao. soccer. ha ha. hai wo bai dan xin yi chang. but as long as he is alright, i'm alright. he happie means i happie. but if he's sad, gradually i will feel sad too de lor. cos he's my onli dear.
*dear, jus wanna let u noe dat no matter wad happens, i'll be by ur side k.* =) thirteen. april .2oo5todae v miracle. didnt msg dear much. he whole nite nv slp, tis morning still earli earli go marina wif e abangs. so ke lian. now he slping liao. cos lata wanna wake up watch match. haiyo. todae ah, onli msg him like abt 20 msg nia. broke our record liao. cos eva since e dae i knew dear we NEVER msg so lil fer one dae. shi you yi dian dian bu xi guan la. but i would rather let him slp more n rest more lor. so i hav to bear wif it. bu ke yi qu chao xing ta. haix. so many hw to do. stack up until one mountain liddat. dunno when will clear all. even if clear liao e nxt dae another stack will form. when will tis eva stop man. sonner or lata sure cant take it de lor. sian sia. breakdown how? =x promise dear cannot breakdown liao. you shen me shi dear hui zai wo shen bian de. =D hehe. all i can sae is, "lurve is powerful!!" todae's NAPHA was quite gd. haha. ai de jing shen. helps alot eh. lol. hmmm. k la. gotta go continue wif my hw le. reali miss him so much. gonna numb myself wif hw!! tata.
12:39 PM
Monday, April 11, 2005
hEys pPl!! i'M bAck bLoggiNg lo. haHa. kiNda loSt toUch wiF e coM tiNgy aFteR sUch a loNg tiMe siA. liFe hAs beEn rEali grEat feR mE exCepT tHosE teRribLe hW daT i hAv loR. deAr dUi wO cHao hAo! yiNg wEi yoU ni, wO de sHi jiE biAn de gEn mEi li. deAr, thAnks feR aLl e suPpoRt n eNcouRagEmeNt. muAckx. =D
6:59 AM