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Thursday, May 12, 2005

yupps. todae's maths paper was f*ing. paper1 was alrites. budden paper2 was disastrous!!! GOD!! damn arse diff. 2 qns, worth 22 marks together. hahas. i didnt do. didnt touch it AT ALL! cos reali reali dunno how to touch it. yupps. so practically i will fail tis paper la. hahas. you bu shi mei you fail guo.

yeah. as usual. rushed hum after sch to online. but realise he wasnt online at all todae. was v v worried. tot he sick den nv go sch. ask marmi msg him ask abt it but he didnt reply until after a v long time. was too worried. so ask ujin fer help. yupps. thank god. he was fine. absolutely fine. didnt go sch todae cos of e personal profiling tingy. phew. nie le yi ba leng han. xia si wo le. haix. ting dao ta mei shi, macham big stone put dwn liddat. relax. bcos of tis ah, zit tao no mood study. keep wondering wad has happen to him. haix. xiang yao guan xin ta you bu zhi dao yao zhen me qu kai kou. bi jing, xian zai wo de shen fen bu tong le. hen duo hen duo shi qing bu shi yao shuo jiu shuo de ma. yupp.

watched "dolphin bay" wif xuan todae. make me tink of him. rem da first time i watched e show was wif him. at his class' chalet. hmmm. 2 diff mood 2 diff time. xuan made me tink. she owaes nv fail to trigger my thoughts. rem da flower dat he gave me. xuan told me dat ta shi bao zhe yi ge xi huan ta de xin qing qu pei ta mai de. well. i was wondering wad if dat time end up wif him de is xuan instead of me, would da situation be diff now? would i be happier w/o him? or wad? zhen de xiang le hen duo. wo dao di yao dao shen me shi hou cai bu hui qu xiang ta ne?? haix. troubled me fer nites le. pass few nites oso cant slp. dunno y. jus keep tossing on da bed lor. 10 pm go bed. 12 plus den able to slp. slp liao oso keep waking up. wad de lor. slpless nites. dreams of him. sometimes nitemare. cant take it lor. haix. STRESS AH! evrything dun seems to go well fer me w/o u. exams stress. here stress dere stress. i might seem to be strong. pretending nth's wrong wif me. i'm prfectly happie. ha. but hu reali noes me. noes wad i'm tinking. all tis pretendence cant last de lor. somehow one dae i might break dwn. hu noes rite. so as long as i still can take all tis stress, continue all tis pretendence, i will. I SWEAR I WILL!

yupp. mus continue wif my mugging liao. tml gt phy paper. argh. stress again. all dunno. fine. shall try my best. hmmm. wish me luck okay? buaiix peeps.
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